A Kick to the Heart

"Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same." - Franz Schubert.

"Some people come into our lives, kick and leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same." - Aniza.

Curious

Curiosity might kill the cat. My curiosity killed the heart.

If Only...

If only I can enjoy this happiness. This love I am showered with.

If only I can totally erase the nightmare. Those hurting words and images.

If only.

I'm Just Human...

Know what, I lied.
I have not forgiven nor forgotten. Every time I am remembered of your hurtful words, I pray that your heart will be broken just like mine did. The only reason why I have not crushed your life is my faith in God.
I will never forgive. I am just human.

What It Felt Like

I picked this up from the movie - The Women. It's the scene when Meg Ryan went to see her mother to tell her about her husband. She then brushed her mother saying she can't possibly know how she feels, and the mother said, "Let me try...".

This honestly tells how it felt when I got to know:
"It feels like someone kicked you in the stomach, feels like your heart stopped beating, feels like that dream, you know the one when you are falling and you want so desperately to wake up before you hit the ground but it's all out of your control. You can't trust anything anymore, no one is who they say they are. Your life is changed forever, and the only thing to come out of the whole ugly experience is no one will be able to break your heart like that again."

Try As You Might

I know he's trying. I know he's trying very, very hard.

But I have a damaged heart. Nothing you do can mend the heart.

Try as you might. I always leave the heart open for healing. The last time I checked, the heart was still very broken.

How Can One Be So Ugly?

Never in my life has I ever perceive someone as ugly. But now, every time I see someone that might resemble her, or dress like her, or simply reminds me of her, I can only see ugliness. So ugly that I had to turn my head so as not to puke. No, not in the physique as I am no prejudice. But in the soul I know she possess. Because only someone with a heart so ugly will ever hurt another woman. A woman whose only crime is to love the man who is hers.

The Heart Always Knows

The pain in my chest started about the same time it started.
The heart knew then even when the mind knew not.
The pain never healed.

You Shall

Seek and you shall find,
Pray and you shall get,
Dream and you shall achieve.

Shards of a Broken Glass

May your heart be crushed to pieces like the shards of a broken glass. Where you will struggle to piece them all together to no avail. And you will remember the other heart you so badly broken. Just like the pieces of glass in your hand.
You will fall apart and feel the pain. And you will know that such pain can never be healed.

Forever in Love

A shared smile, an intense gaze, a spontaneous laugh... followed by a passionate kiss.
Forever in love.

Searching for the Answer

I wake up every single day and ask myself - why? I have yet to find the answer.

Breath of Life

I breathed life into her, and she in return breathed life back into me. And for that I am grateful.

My Prayers

I pray. And I pray. That you get what you deserve.

Who Do You Seek?

How do you know that you are the love of his life?
When he is at his lowest moment... like air is being sucked out of his very lungs... and you are the one he seeks for comfort and companionship.

Do You Have a Tough Heart?

For whatever hurt that you have caused me, I pray you possess a tough heart because one day the situation might just be the reverse... And it might take more than having a tough heart to survive.

Loneliness...

Loneliness. It's perplexing how one can feel so lonely when one is beside a loved one.

Fake Heart

The heart I was born with was badly crushed. It was deemed useless because it kept on aching and aching. So I had a heart transplant. I had it replaced with a plastic heart. A fake heart. The kind of heart that has no feelings. Now everything is fake. A fake smile, a fake laugh. A plastic heart.

Lost of an Ally

One moment of stupidity and he lost his closest ally forever. I have since taken a step back. And I now stand at the very edge of this life's perimeter. Right on the sacred line. A single step is all it takes. I can choose whether my feet is in or out.

Crushed Heart into the Sea

Help is what I need and I'm not getting any. This thing is killing me from inside. I just want to run far, far away. To a place by a beach where I can walk with waves crashing at my feet. A place where I can throw my crushed heart into the sea. And hope that a new heart will grow. And be healed.