Poison in My Veins

I know I should not dwell upon it. I should just move on. But I have such a stubborn heart. It feels like drinking poison and hoping someone else die.

That Is Why I Am Me

I believe I saw it coming. It was expected. Sooner and later I would know. Funny thing was, I was not angry. I just sighed and said - whatever.

I told her other people might face this test differently. I, on the other hand, handled this in such a way that I am the one being hurt in the end. But I was consoled. "That's why you are you," she said.

That is my only regret. And the consequences? These little pieces of shards I used to call - heart.

A Kick to the Heart

"Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same." - Franz Schubert.

"Some people come into our lives, kick and leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same." - Aniza.

Curious

Curiosity might kill the cat. My curiosity killed the heart.

If Only...

If only I can enjoy this happiness. This love I am showered with.

If only I can totally erase the nightmare. Those hurting words and images.

If only.

I'm Just Human...

Know what, I lied.
I have not forgiven nor forgotten. Every time I am remembered of your hurtful words, I pray that your heart will be broken just like mine did. The only reason why I have not crushed your life is my faith in God.
I will never forgive. I am just human.

What It Felt Like

I picked this up from the movie - The Women. It's the scene when Meg Ryan went to see her mother to tell her about her husband. She then brushed her mother saying she can't possibly know how she feels, and the mother said, "Let me try...".

This honestly tells how it felt when I got to know:
"It feels like someone kicked you in the stomach, feels like your heart stopped beating, feels like that dream, you know the one when you are falling and you want so desperately to wake up before you hit the ground but it's all out of your control. You can't trust anything anymore, no one is who they say they are. Your life is changed forever, and the only thing to come out of the whole ugly experience is no one will be able to break your heart like that again."